About Me
- Name: amanda jane
- Location: Wilkes Barre, Pennsylvania, United States
I love the outdoors and nature, friends drinking and singing around a camp fire, nothing like it. I like to make music and listen to music, i sing and play guitar, I love kids and acting like a kid. Life is tough, sometimes we just have to make it fun.
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A view of life through the eyes of a person who is slowly losing their mind.
Thursday, September 09, 2004
This I wrote in a letter to my friend today..
I thought I'd share it with the blogging world;
I am growing more unstable each day and I'm not sure how to handle it. I literally feel as if I'm drifting away and I am sorry not to add comment here. It's an odd feeling, you think that I would be sad knowing that I may never return to the person inside myself that I once loved, but I'm not sad, I'm more scared. I don't want to turn into some kind of demon. I wish I knew what was doing it to me, what is making me crazy. It would be so much easier to blame the alcohol or drugs. Maybe I should start doing drugs. So I ask of you a favor, don't ever hate me, because I really have no clue what I'm doing here on this planet, I'm just winging it as I go. And when the day comes that you all realize that I am indeed crazy, just know that I tried to tell people, but no one really believed me, but believe me, I am slowly losing it. I think I'll be relieved when I don’t have to care anymore. But for now, I am indeed happy. so most of this has no matter now, but it will eventually. Thanks for listening, and making me smile.
I am growing more unstable each day and I'm not sure how to handle it. I literally feel as if I'm drifting away and I am sorry not to add comment here. It's an odd feeling, you think that I would be sad knowing that I may never return to the person inside myself that I once loved, but I'm not sad, I'm more scared. I don't want to turn into some kind of demon. I wish I knew what was doing it to me, what is making me crazy. It would be so much easier to blame the alcohol or drugs. Maybe I should start doing drugs. So I ask of you a favor, don't ever hate me, because I really have no clue what I'm doing here on this planet, I'm just winging it as I go. And when the day comes that you all realize that I am indeed crazy, just know that I tried to tell people, but no one really believed me, but believe me, I am slowly losing it. I think I'll be relieved when I don’t have to care anymore. But for now, I am indeed happy. so most of this has no matter now, but it will eventually. Thanks for listening, and making me smile.
