We're all human

not for my mood, though I do have a cold. You see I've been watching this hurrican roll in on t.v. The waters are rising and New Orleans is once again under it all. Texas is in big trouble and I feel like I'm watching the world end. I have all these flashback images in my head of all the destruction I've seen in my life time alone. I've read Revelations time and again and it all seems to be unfolding. Though I am a firm believer that the predictions in the great book will take hundreds of years to unfold, here it is. It's happening on my television. Empathy can be a hard thing to release. I find that being empathedic is a lose/lose battle. You can cry and send your heart out to those affected by any kind of tragidy, but what does that really do. It will send you into a state of depression along with the victims but it won't help the situation.....or your head to rest peacefully at the end of the day.

Let's face it, me and all my friends, we're broke. But we live from day to day and do what we need to do and I thank God they are all safe and in my view. I know we can't make a million dollar donation, but if you got a few bucks to spare, (even a five dollar bill), call the Red Cross and they can take it out of your account right over the phone. People can argue, "Oh, the Government will take care of those people" and blah, blah, blah. Do what you can.

Okay, I'm going of on a tangent here. Anyway, if NEPA was struck by tragedy, I know that we would be taken care of, one way or another. Do what you can. Anything. I know all the school kids are selling candy and shit for their school. I personally won't spend a dime on it, and I hope you all won't either. Take the ten bucks you'd spend on a crappy box of chocolate and send it to those in need.

I just made my small donation of ten bucks at: www.redcross.org/donation
I used my check card and it was really easy.

I was told that I should write some thing in this blog every day. Even if I have nothing to say, I should write just to write. Well to be honest..if I don't write here on this page every day it's because I have already chosen to write on paper for the day. The thoughts come out different on paper and I like the comparison.

So today, I am writing just to write. It's the first day of fall and Melany's birthday. Happy Birthday Mel!!! I'm taking you out on Saturday with a few friends. It's some thing ever so slightly out of the ordinary and you think you already know what it is. Chances are that you do have it figured out, but hell it'll be fun anyway. I told Mark where we were going and even he got excited. So....um, Saturday around seven or so.

I awoke this morning to a new burden. Damn head cold. Sucks real bad, but tis the season I guess. I also had the pleasure of hitting the snooze button three hundred times from five thirty until after six for Mr. Girmen. It's good to be back. Parts of me are screaming that it's just going to happen again. But isn't that what love is about? Giving yourself 100%, fear and all. Don't dry my tears next time folks cause you can all say, "shoulda learned the first time." Ahh, I am happy. Cares, who? Cares, you?

My foot is itchy.

Lets start with new business first, shall we?

Mountain Jam is all set up and let me tell you, it looks awesome. The crew built a hell of stage and a hell of a canopy over it. They built two nice benches out of birch I believe. Big pile of wood, which still needs to be cut and a fire square that me and the Yurkin boys built last night. Even christined it with a small fire as the sun set on the day that kicks off best week of summer that is Mountain Jam.

My excitment is hard to contain and my motivation is all over the place. Painting, cleaning, buliding and singing. Yee-ha. Tonight I will get the camp area raked and ready. The turn out will be nothing to laugh at.

This is where I come from. Georgetown, Laurel Run and the sort come together at the end of summer. We set up tents and coolers, a stage, and a few handfuls of musicians. They play as the sun goes down and some years until the sun comes up. We dance and eat and drink and build a big fire. It's some thing that has become tradition on our little mountain in NEPA. It's unlike anything you've ever experienced unless you've been there yourself and could call the majority of the jam goers friends. Giddy up folks, the weekend is but four short days away!!!

said to me today, "If I can find a reason to smile today, then I'm sure you can find a million."

Thanks friend.

Where everything is as paranoid as getting old.~S. Hoon

To make me cry is a great accomplishment. You gotta know that I care when you can put tears streaming down my face and in that instant I hate you just as much as I love you...because you have that ability to make me cry. More then a few of you have done it to me, as I have also done to you maybe once.

I can't get the bitter taste out of my mouth. The sweetness of the syrup from the breakfast made for me this morning was not enough to cover it up. Yet it reminded me that no one should have the ability to make me cry. That is my theme today. Could be a touch of the good ole p.m.s. It could be that finally I am barking up the wrong tree or karma is coming back to punch me for that time I said I'd call you back and never did.

I use the word "you" loosely here, it could be any one of you. I'm sorry if I said that I would call and never did. We've all been there before.

Jack and John are always good at dispensing the truth to me without any candy coating and I appreciate that.

So I will spend the day cleaning the things in my surroundings until I feel like I have made things right again. Again I have seen my life flash before my eyes and awoke this morning surprised that I made it home okay last night. How wrong is that? I've learned not to bury it all under empty beer bottles, bowls, and packs of smokes. Some times it is the best way to push it out from underneath you. Last night it was not a good idea for the simple fact that the feeling in the pit of my stomach is still so sour. I'll keep brushing my teeth, but.....this will be hanging on to me for a better part of today. Yuck.