We're all human

to many passed away yesterday. Duke. Please send your condolences to Rich. Losing a dog is losing a member of the family. It's very sad to say goodbye on this week before Christmas.

Are you all ready for Christmas? I'm getting there. Gonna hop off-line and hit a few stores before tending bar. Then probably after I'm done tending bar. I plan on going to see my friend Ray for a bit tonight to wish him a very Merry Christmas.

The cookies are baked, most of the presents are wrapped and once again I am looking forward to Christmas Eve services and Mr. P's cookies. MERRY CHRISTMAS, WHO AM I! hahahahha

Nothing too deep to report. Just pacing myself through this week. If I sit and start to think about how much I actually have to take care of before Saturday...I will throw up. One task at a time. I hope it's all rainbows and sunshine for you all. Now put on your mittens or you'll be donating your frostbitten hand to science for Christmas.

Hello humans. Christmas cookies make my belly smile. Tonight should be good fun, a lot of friends are done with classes today and are putting their drinking hats on. I myself have work till ten or so, but I'm going to get out early. The little flakes of white wonder are just winding down on our little patch of woods. So by tonight, it's gonna be yucky and they know I got a ways to drive home. Can't hurt to ask right?

So Bone's it is. I'm hoping for some Welgosh tunes and perhaps some Youngblood too. Fingers crossed. Cleaning and shopping tomorrow. I know where Friday night is happening, but Saturday is a blur. Ooooooo, I just remembered that I have Sunday off. SWEET!!!!!

Now, now now.....for some thing else.

Tell Santa I would like to change my list a little bit. I'd like a different couch (one I can curl up on enough room to fit a w00k of male gender). A coffee table and my electric bill to dissappear. lol

I like waking up in my bed on those mornings. Too at peace to get up, just give us five more minutes. I'm as excited as a carrot on a snowman.

Thanks for the chance.

colder then a witch's you know what. It was a nice morning. Relaxed I am, finally. That is until I pull up to my parents house to do some laundry and my good ole neighbor's got a deer hanging in the tree. Frickin yuck. I almost want to go take it's pictures but that's even more crude then the thoughts I had upon first viewing it. So congradulations Raymond for getting your trophy.

Let's talk about this now shall we. We have cow and pig farms. These animals are raised there for FOOD. That is why the animals are raised..to be killed so I can have some beef in my lasagna. Deer, are free animals that help maintain our mountain. They do their thing then we get all dolled up in safety orange, climb up in a tree, wait for one to come into view and then blow the life out of it. Drag the damn thing home...........................and hang it in our tree. Yuck. Yuck. Yuck. "Deer meat is really good for you" GET BENT. If it's that good then how come we don't have deer farms?

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I just found out this little trick. Maybe I'm behind on the times and didn't know about it. But, go to www.google.com and type in the word "failure" then click on "I"m feeling lucky"
What till you see what it does, it's pretty funny.

So here is my day, laundry, then more laundry, then I got to put some food in my house. Then play my guitar and read. Four o'clock, leave for work. Work till ten thirty or eleven. Then I wanted to go to a John Lennon Tribute but it states that it's two hours of music starting at nine. Not gonna make it. I really wanted to go to just try and fill the void of knowing that I'm missing Dark Star again. If any of my friends make it to the shows tonight have a good time. Please be safe though, snow starting at midnight and coming down until after dawn. Only a few inches but scary none the less.

Gotta make a break through this weekend. No, going to make a break through this weekend. What's going on this weekend kiddies. I want to tear it up Friday. That's my big night out....oooooooo.

My heart is pumping out of my chest, it's out of my hands for now. I've got crazy energy today. If only you knew. I find myself in the most outrageous places when Jeeps break and the sun is down. It helps get the creative juices flowin' when the wheels are turning in a different direction.

Aside from it all...I'm pretty good at screwing things up without even trying. So I'm not going to try, just live. I get anxious. It's almost like chicken noodle soup. Warm and comforting on a cold day.

Sandwiches, warm sandwiches. That'd be good.

Tended bar the last two days. Water pump went. Now it's fixed, Yippidie Do dah. Think I'm a gonna pre-shoot my darts tonight so I can jam tomorrow night. I didn't get to jam cause of the whole water pump thing. No booze tonight. It's gonna be cold tonight. Warm sandwiches. Ah.......Mel and Serenity and Me at the Dough Co. Yummie. Had the green fettucinni with alfredo. No folks, there is not underground insinuations there. We actually had green pasta. Good stuff

My road is a little bumpy but it's just because I don't know how to go about paving it properly. I want what I know will make me happy and no one can tell my how or why

I just need to open up my mouth and speak
So when it happens just bare with me

When it seems like your doing the right thing, make sure it feels like your doing the right thing. Don't let any one or any thing upset your environment. Maybe I'm mental.

Good breakfast. Heart stopper. I'm being blown around, not necessarily off. I slept like an angel last night. And it's my favorite day of the week, THURSDAY!!! Gotta wait tables tonight and then I'm supposed to play open mic with Dan. But Dan's brother is in the hospital so I'm not sure what's going to happen, plus the fact that I won't even be leaving work until after eleven.

I'm just looking to make sure things are going. I hate not knowing what may be next. I'm one of those that thinks that I can control how my day goes and where. This morning I came to the realization that this is not necessarily true. I wish you all knew, but hey, I can't blame any single person for not taking me seriously. Look at my world, where it has been for years now. Finally I feel as if I have a good grip on things. I like to take care of myself and you know what, it's starting to become clear to me that I am not completely happy unless I have a hand in taking care of another as well. If a day goes by that I can't do some thing to make some one else feel more at ease with planet Earth, why breathe.

No one is innoccent though. I have hurt, firsthand. So what's a girl to do. Maybe patience is the key here, but I see none of that in my future. My magic 8 ball is going to experiece it's first fly down the steps unless it starts answering my questions with the right answers.

My breakfast is making my stomach turn. Yuck. and Yee-ha.