We're all human

Sorry to offend you Rich but you are so vauge yet so specific and some times when you write things I feel as if I'm being personally attacked. Especially when you make fun of the things some of us do in the woods. You never come back there, so I don't see why you care. But you know I love you and the boys, that being said, that's all that needs to be said.

How's life everybody. Sunday will be soooo nice and yet again I have damn plans. Not that plans are bad and these plans involve a family that I have yet to meet all at once. Kelly C. not Kelly D. anymore, I'm looking forward to your party. So after the party I get to go meet "totally unplugged" and then I'd like to see the woods.

Do you like my flowers? Should I plant more? I know they will get trampled on at one point or another but they sure are perty.

Most of my issues have subsided, I'm in limbo in every way shape and form and maybe that is what makes me happiest.

The leaves on the trees are right in front of my face blowing in the wind. It's a sight that around Feb. I was afraid I'd never get to see. It's beautiful, thank you Mother Nature.

I tried to learn how to line dance, I didn't do too well and you know the old saying "If at first you don't succeed try try again." Yeah well, I'm supposed to try, try again at seven o'clock tonight, but poop on that. Have you seen the pin wheels from the top of the Mnt. They are interesting and make me think of changing with the times. Maybe I'll get a tattoo of G. W. Bush right on my butt hole. Very proper ain't I.

My hair is culry all by itself and I like it. Taking a ride to see those perty pin wheels tonight.

See you on top of the Mountain.

Every now and again I make the mistake of reading "some of us." I can't talk to you. I haven't been able to "talk" to you since Christmas morning when you proved once again that you can't separate your dream mountain world from reality. You are a miserable man yet you try and find moments of happiness when actually it seems to just remind you that you pushed us all away. You pushed us all away and then you blame it on the way we live our lives, who we choose to relate with and where we choose to spend our time. If you could of accepted anyone of us for just the way we are then maybe you would see that your not so different and that we are good people. Isn't that what makes the world go round? The freedom to make our own decisions. I often wonder if you think that you are above the rest of us. "Some of Us" kind of shows us just that. I don't think I've ever known you to once just enjoy a moment.....a sunset.....a joke....for just what it is. Your always trying to find One thing that makes something special less beautiful.

I've given up. I have tried to put it all aside just to have another day with those two rays of sunshine that I was so blessed to care for. Now what. Your going to go on ranting via the internet and have also brought me down to that. You get mad at everything that goes on up the back (good band by the way) yet your not a part of it. Some things should be kept to thought and never recorded. But hey as long as you don't care that we know you are bashing us and our friends then I guess I don't care about what I'm posting today.

That's been a long time coming folks and you'd never know why it bothers me so unless you were me. I had to get it out, now I can finally go on without pent up frustration and never never steer onto that page again.

I hope every one else is feeling good about their lives. Right now some one too young is on their deathbed wishing they could have more time to do those little things. Like sit by a creek and watch the water, or throw a Frisbee with a friend who is really bad at throwing it back. To go for a ride with an old friend and finally tell them how much they mean to you (thanks Shawn). I am glad for the life that I have. No one can take that away from me, especially with words. If it ended tomorrow I would not take those last moments as an "I wish" because I really feel that I have the best friends and family in the world and have had the best of experiences because of them.

Lost another one to drugs and I'm real bitter about it. I just stay away and keep on keepin on. Wow, is that cheese or what.

I had a few moments this weekend that tested all the things I stand for. In the end I stood alone, a little sad, a little ashamed for the ones that try to stand but use the crutch. Not much more then a few days later and I'm already pushing past it yet glancing back. I think the only thing that helps some times is to know that there isn't anything one can do to change another. Especially in drugs.

Sat on the top of the mnt. basking in the Spring sunshine for hours yesterday. Got the red shoulders to prove it. So beautiful. It's Tuesday. I like Tuesdays.