We're all human

It was a wonderful holiday. Long. All these new things came about over the holiday to take all the newfound perspective I have and flush it down the toliot. There is no such thing as perspective. How can one try and take something they've never experienced and put it into their own perspective. It's impossible. You can only have a good perspective on a situation if your going or have been through it.

I have this amazing opportunity to be really happy. Can I sacrafice one's happiness for my own? No, of course not, but how about the situation. I only wish I could let it all escape from my brain onto this page but too many eyes will not know what to make of it. It's in the air, I know G-town can smell it. How, dear Lord, can this be wrong. Why? Because one person can't have what they want, so no one wins? Smells foul.

Working, working, cleaning, working, have a beer, go for a ride, work, think, play guitar, think, work. Worry.

Play, that is what I will do now, at least for the next two hours.....play

Working at Banko's now three days a week. Up here at Rich's four days a week. I have no reason to believe that I can't hack it. We'll see after the first few weeks. If anything I'll just need to ask Rich for a half day on Friday's but like I said we'll see. Got to pay the bills and be a productive member of society.....don't we all.

Mark is talking to me, that relieves some stress. I don't want any enemies especially from some one who I care about as much as I do.

Thanksgiving is only a week away and I feel like there is so much to do. At least me and Rich can help eachother. I haven't even seen my father in like a week and a half. I gotta get there today before darts.

Being so well behaved is paying off in so many ways. Aww....little Mander Jane is growing up...again...and again...and again.

My luch was accidently ruined and now my belly hurts. damn.


That's it folks, sorry to be so drab in these entries lately, but so much to do and so little time.

All moved in, need a kitchen table, a microwave stand, a coffee maker and that's it. I like it there. Mel's house has always been a second home to me. And thank you Mel for always making it that way, not just to me, but to every one who you welcome in. There are always fun souls flying around her house and I even sneak her dog Gus up whenever I have some time to spend with him. I also got my phone hooked up so for those that didn't get it yet, call my mom's or mel's and they will give you the number.

I've been working and unpacking and thinking and breathing. Girm goodbye day was a few days ago, I decided not to care. Not quite sure why I did. I know that I don't need to be with anyone, but there are interests that have sparked. I'll get used to living with me for a while. See what will happen.

The children are smiling and the sink is empty. Life looks good on all angles today. I hope the same is said for yourself. Poopie heads.

It's already been a long week, not sure if it's the time change or how busy I have been. All is good. Making me laugh trying to talk over the music. Can't wait for the weekend. Darts tonight, luck wish me.

Anyone got a free DVD player of PS2 for me? Anyone? I'll pay for shipping. Well, it's worth a try.

Hey strawberry, are you wondering too?

Answer me damn it.

I'm in a good mood, silly, in fact. Stayed up late writing on paper. Twas good.

Almost all moved in. This weekend all will be done.
Halloween is over and November is here, and in case your really out of the loop, you were supposed to turn your clocks back Sunday morning.
Went trick-or-treating with a princess, a racecar driver, and a ghoul from scream. Twas fun.

The weekend, well, friday night was Chae and woods. Thanks for the company. It was cold but it was nice. For future rides, I fixed the heat! Didn't have a drop of anti-freeze in the radiator...whoops. I missed Saturday night, I was sick in bed. I watched scary movies and wished I was some where else. Some times it's even hard for me to enjoy my own company. My aplogies to Miranda and Kim, I hope your party was a blast and I was sad to of missed it.

Rusted Root, Friday night, anyone interested? It's fifteen bucks and I think we have two seats open for the ride. Let me know. It's in Allentown and we should be home no later then one o'clock.

I can't wait to be in my place. Thanks to all who donated to the Amanda Jane I need shit for my new place fund. Joe is going to help me move the few things I have left to move in a matter of days. Just gotta make the rest of the rent and I'll be good to go. Hell, even my Jeep is 100% legal now. Yippie!!! I want to make dinner for friends and relax. I want to be able to go downstairs to Mel's and make Serenity play with me. Living there alone was the best living experience I had and I'm looking forward to all of the things that come along with it, including the bills.

My parents will miss my presence, this they already let me know. I love them dearly but we all have our time. I've been back now for over a year, my brother will be out by the end of next, and them my parents can do it all the live long day....ewwwww.

I've been down, and I've not been hiding it. It's that limbo place I need to get past. All in good time I guess.

Standing on rocks in the cold winds, watching the water, wondering if you wonder too.