A view of life through the eyes of a person who is slowly losing their mind.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Turn on your light you won't regret it...

you've got to go for the good and get it.

Got my DMB tickets. Yippie, can't wait, but will. The whole month of July is going to be nuts. We got the 4th of course then the concert on the 5th. Then the 100th year anniv. Of the Giant's despair Hill Climb, which also happens to be my 26th birthday. Summertime, summertime, sum, sum, summertime, summerime.

Sill doing what I'm doing. The weather breaks and so does my Jeep. Still drivin' her though. It's going to be a nice night as well. I'm thinkin' of grillin' on the mountain. Or something of the sorts. I want a fire and my guitar but when the time is there I am not.

KGB rocked again, had us on our feet all night. Boogie woggie. Still recovering.

Reading books, cleaning closets and watching the Spring roll in from the plateaus. Life is good yet somber. I've felt more like my silly old self as ever this past week or so. Might be the season, might be that I'm trying not to care so much about being one single person. People (like me) are always trying to make other people feel better about the things that make them unhappy by telling them that they are not along. That there are other people out there in the same situations. Can't seem to tell that to myself. Do I have to be with committed to some one for others to take me seriously. I know my friends know how things go in my world. But acquaintances think I'm flighty. I'm not. I don't jump to decisions when it comes to a significant other. I stand outside and take a look in and when I see it for the long run and doubts outweigh the rest. I boogie. I've spent five years attatched to one and three years miserable with another. Most of you know what that is like. I'm not looking to be swept off my feet, I'm looking to live my life the way I do and be accepted and loved for it. No questions asked. People change to insure that they are what their significant other wants. Shouldn't you be how they want from the get go. Some one please explain to me what settling down really means. Does it mean to sit home every night on the couch next to some one watching fiction on the boob tube talking about what you talked about the night before. What ever happened to adventure. Going out and experiencing new things with people sounds a lot more like living life to me. Don't live vicariously through your television sets. You can look out your home windows at the same scenery any day, why not take a ride and look out the window at some thing your eyes have met yet.

I don't know what's with me today. I hope not to hear grateful days opinion on this either, especially when I know the date and my invitation fell through the cracks no doubt by his own bitterness.

Time to go out into the world.
Comments:
Ah my dear I'd like to tell you what i feel is wrong but what the hell do i know,one thing that was said to me yrs ago
"love is being a better person for the one you love" dont know if that helps but I leave that to you to decide
Hippy
 
id have to disagree a bit, in a good relationship you dont change for that person, you change because of them and what they bring to your world. granted there are people who will fit any mold that the object of their affection desires, but all in all when you find your someone you tend to find yourself changing because of the experiences, good and bad, that you share and fitting their perfect picture of happily ever after becomes less important.
but thats just my two cents.
 
don't worry, when you find the right person, you'll feel it. and you'll be comfortable being yourself and not worrying about changing. it all evens out in the end.
 
yea yea gftgagi

didnt use that in a long while
probably wore the bastard out
 
its all good hippy, i do agree much with your sentiments, my comment was more directed to the original posting.... :)
 
Why is it whenever you talk like this I always hear "That's The Way I've Always Heard It Should Be" by Carly Simon?
 
You are a contentious person...in the wierdest of ways. Did you ever think that I might have had something else to do? Maybe I went to see a woman that night...okay. She was better than the firemans inn on any night. You had a date didn't you?
 
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